Humans weren’t made to be kind. We weren’t born nice. We weren’t born to not be cruel. As a child, we didn’t know how to be nice. When we wanted something, we just took it. We didn’t know how to be polite. Our parents had to teach us.

In some cases, our parents weren’t there to teach us right from wrong. We were alone to fend for ourselves. Some people think if us as cruel, strange people when, in reality, we just never had anyone there for us.

Mostly downs…

I’m not sure where I’m going with this post okay LOL

But yeah, I hate it a lot. I hate the feeling of not knowing where my life will be headed next. The people I’ll meet, the places I’ll go, the relationships that’ll be broken. I just hate the feeling of never knowing what’s going to happen next. But, I guess that’s a part of life, isn’t it?

I’m tired of everything. I’m tired of stress. I’m tired of jumbled emotions. I’m tired of talking. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of family. I’m tired of everything really. I just honestly don’t know what I’m doing here anymore.

I can’t live up to people’s expectations. I’m a complete bitch to people who don’t deserve to be treated that way. I can’t do anything with my life. I’m not talented. I’ll never live up to be somebody, you know?

Basically, I honestly wonder how people can stand to talk to me or be my friend or even care about me.

This is such a random ass post, I don’t even know.

It may lead you to want. It may leave you to hate. It’s unpredictable really.

I just don’t know where to start.

Sometimes I don’t know how to respond, sometimes it’s impossible to respond to certain things. I won’t always understand them/what their motives are. All I really can do to be a “good friend” is to be there to ask what’s wrong, but I won’t always know when somethings wrong. I just want to be a better person, really.